Internet less

Ah! I had no internet for the past week or so and just today the land lord said that problem will be resolved by Monday T.T....seriously, If I wasn't under contract I would've left ages ago...I mean for the price I'm paying you'd think the service would be better!
Anyways complaining won't get me anywhere! I was planning on uploading all my photos from the GAMP convention I attended, though that doesn't look like its going to happen anytime soon, since Im using internet at the library at the moment.
Atleast this time I at par with all my assignments, so theres not so much stress there, I've been doing them way before hand to ensure that I get plenty of rest the night before its due! X3 yay me!? idk
anyways, just updating, can't upload photos because its taking forever -.-

Broody no more

Lately I've been broody and sulking-ish...to be quite honest, I've been annoyed at myself for being rather spoiled. I missed a few bills and spent a little too much so I've was regretting my mistakes! but I keep forgetting, I'm 21!! I'm expected to make mistakes! and all this bill stuff is just money, It'll work out. God, I've been such a brat, if I were not me, I woud've hit myself for being such a child! you'd think a year partially alone would have at least taught me some independence, but the moment things start to get real, I'm calling my parents! -.-" and it's not just them, I mean, I even pester my sister alot, I just don't seem to realize that everyone else around me has a life too. Mostly because when someone calls, I drop everything to respond...I need to get a life...but most importantly, I need to check google now!! i've been eying the word quite for a whole minute wondering if I've got the right spelling or I just typed down the opposite of noisy....oh...it's the right one...:D (I know, weirdo right?)

Wig!

Now that i've got my wig, this whole cosplay thing seems so much more real! I'm nervous but excited at the same time...its that thin line between fear and adventure! My friend Irene did all the buying details for my costume, wig and lenses...seriously, if it wasn't for her, I'd still be on ebay searching for costumes :P

anyways, the main event...pictures of me in my wig! huhuhu, wearing the wig even has me considering dyeing my hair white and straightening it! :O ...though, i probably won't do that...maybe when im 25 :P .

beiber cut! lol wtf?

Swimming

I went swimming today! I was tired of procrastinating and being scared of the water...so today i got up, wore my shorts and dived in (literally)! and it was refreshing! XD
It was like taking back a piece of my life...lately everything's been going so out of control, this small victory is exactly what I needed!

Sleep is for the dead.

I honestly cannot tell when was the last time I had a good decent sleep. These days I find it hard to even tell the difference between my dreams and reality. Everything seems so fragmented, like bits of my reality are really just dreams masquerading as day. Even my sleep seems so surreal, I am constantly abruptly waking up because of assignments and so forth.
I'm too proud to obviously ask for help, but sometimes, I wish someone would lend a hand regardless...
But, this is my burden to bear. and the one thing, even if it is the only thing, that I do well...is take everything the world throws at me! or atleast i'd like to believe.

Lonely

Have you ever watched a movie and as the guy finally gets the girl, you tell yourself " I want that"...I want the drama, the hearct ache, the love, the jealousy, the resolution and the happy ever after....but life isn't like that.
There is no perfection in life like in movies, so everytime you see love, you get depressed...because reality sucks in comparison. Our idea of love has been so bent on fantasy that we fail to see the good the life has to offer. Instead we try to mold ourselves into a more perfect form...and by perfect, I mean more like the actors we see in movies. At times we get lonely because we don't have a girlfriend, but do we honestly need one?!  In movies, the moment the male protaganist hits puberty, he automatically HAS to have a girlfriend or else it will fail as a film! Where's the logic in that?
How many people can honestly say that they were in a relationship the second they turned 14...and why would you want to be in a relationship at 14 years old?
Isn't the goal of a relationship to get married and start a family? Why would you want to start a family at 14? or even 20 for that matter?! There is no point in it...but because we are so heavily drugged with the media we feel that at 20, no love means you're lonely so therefore no life. -.-
just my opinion anyway...random ramblings of a misfit

Soo Much to do!!

I know I haven't blogged in a millennium or so, but that is entirely excusable...this semester, I took up way more than I can handle!o.O
You're probably thinking, film and animation? how can that be alot to do...don't you just shoot movies?! ...well no, we don't
let me run you through a typical day for me.
Watch up at 6, pray, shower and clean up on my drawing assignment if i havent done so yet...and odds are, I haven't...then off to university and if im luck, catch a small break fast. Sit through a 4 hour class and break for lunch, then back to my second usuaaly 2 hour class and go home to pray...no! im not done with the day yet...go back to uni to practice for soran bushi or else aikido which ironically always happens on consecutive days, and both of which end up at around 11...no, days not over...because I usually get loads of assignments from the earlier classes, so it's off to work...by the time i'm done with all this, it's around 3 am (if im lucky)..so take a quick nap and repeat...yes, so you can see how hectic it all is!