As I was making my showreel for my internship. A random thought just ran through my head. I was picturing myself sitting under the warm sun by a sparkling lake with a girl I hang out with.
I was so lost in my imagination that I didn't realize I was then stalking her facebook pictures. I know! freaky.
Usually, I'm level headed if not somewhat dramatic, but this was different. I wasn't trying to be anything, I was just lost in my own imagining and for some reason she was there and the whole mood was...warm. I was happy . The oddest thing is, I'm fairly sure I don't like her. I mean, I like her as a friend, but not anything more. Not to mention, I'd hate to ruin m father's plan to have me married to aa complete stranger. (Even I'm not sure if I'm being sarcastic there) But still, I feel like I'm old enough...okay, wait...at 22 let me stop myself...I feel like I'm...mature enough...to make the choice on who I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. For so long I was under the sad delusion that I'd spend forever with my family. But the sad truth is that while we will always be close...that doesn't mean will be close geographically...I need to find that girl who completes me...I'm not sure if I'm being extremely picky, or this happens normally but every girl I see as a potential has too many faults that I don't think I can live with...I mean, if you're going to spend forever with someone, you have to make sure you can live with them at least right?
